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Wednesday, December 06, 2006 tired as of late. i've been working full time for about a month now.. and things have been okie i guess. but these past 2 weeks i've been so. freaking. tired. maybe its cuz i haven't made up for waking up at 6 all last week... but i feel even more tired this week than i was last week and i'm working an hour later than i was last week... i never realized how much planning was involved in doing a small craft everyday... but maybe i just try to do too elaborate things haha... although i'm starting to not care so much about creative now =) usually i try to make all my creatives awesome.. like last time i did creative we made dinosaur teeth necklaces which involved me staying up til 1 monday nite making dinosaur teeth so they would be ready for friday haha... this week.. i don't care if they're kool or not.. i just wanna think of 5 creative for the week =) next week i do circle... so 5 lessons to teach... not such a big fan of circle either... but i gotta do it... blehhhh and next week is the christmas concert! eep! i'm not looking forward to that much.... i'd look forward to it more if i didn't have to be involved in it =) what have i been up to lately? oh i got skates last month.. i still haven't gone skating since that one time i went... i should get on that... i miss skating in waterloo... its so much better cuz theres not that many people =) every time i go public skating here its so crowded... oh i need to go to waterloo... *sigh* i miss it... i think i've been passing out almost every nite after work for a few hours.. i don't think i will ever get used to a 9-5 sort of job... its too early haha... i baked some stuff... for fun.. been experimenting a tiny bit... gonna make some blueberry cookies some time soon... i'd do it today if i weren't falling asleep =) got painting class this weekend.. i'm excited... that means i'll be finished my painting =) now to figure out what to draw next... next weekend i'm gonna be spending the whole weekend learning cpr and first aid.. *sigh* fun stuff. i hafta take it before school starts.. and do a bunch of other stuff before school starts. crap. i am so screwed. need to make a doctor's appointment and get forms filled out.. go to school to get my student card and all that other crap... gabahoaisjd oewjoijawkjqoi *&*&%$&##@%$&*%^!! oh and christmas shopping! gaaaaaaaaaaaaah! i feel so stressed out already... like i'm running out of time.. hahaha which i AM. i need to stop procrastinating and forgetting hahaha.. i was gonna make some phone calls today during my lunch but i got distracted and totally forgot... *sigh!* stooobud lost.. hahaha.. i'm starting to get a little more into that.. trying not to but its hard when everyone is watching it at lunch time in the staff room =) lately, i've been finding that i am.... for lack of better words... more than i seem. i guess i've alwayz had this view of myself... and lately i've been finding that i'm not alwayz that kind of person... that i'm not as weak as i think i am about some things... and its.... really surprising. there are some things that i still find i can't do... like getting used to change.. or bringing myself to change something big... but for other things... like standing my ground... or suggesting things... i find it easier to do and they were kind of things i had a really hard time with before... i like that. i guess maybe it's from working and having to talk all the time... or just friends who push me to do things or put words in my mouth when i have none at the moment =) but its nice to know that i AM getting better at something.... just something that steph said that has been stuck in my head ever since i first read it.... "I'm such a complete hopeless romantic. The thought of love, the butterflies, the cute awkwardness, the blushing, the heart pounding nervousness, the first kiss, the first touch the first everything sends chills that begin in my gut and end up in my heart. I love the idea of love, falling in love and being in love. To avoid being cliche and stating obvious notions of love that have been repeated to near death -- I'll end it on this note: I'm so hopeless and I love it." funny how i've known steph since gr. 1 and we think alike about so many things =) 0_o ( 6:50 PM ) ~ punchyfruit ~ |
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