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Thursday, July 06, 2006 who knew there was a 6:00 in the morning. this past week i've been waking up early for work.. and lemme tell you its the most brutal thing i've had to do in a while.. its just as bad as waking up for 7:00 hockey practices on a saturday =) i think drinking coffee helps me a bit.. but halfway thru the day i can feel myself falling asleep even if my eyes are open! working with the older kids isn't as bad as i thought it would be... there ARE some cute ones =) its just harder for me to discipline cuz they walk all over me... BUT the other day i had to yell so loudly to get them to listen.. and now they do! =) and most of them like me so i'm happy hahaha.. the other ones.. i don't care =) whatever! i miss my squishy tho so since i get off early i kinda hang around for like an hour.. to wait for pat cuz she gets off an hour after me... so i sit in the payground playing with the kids.. and pretty much working for free haha.. its hard not to say anything just cuz i'm off =) like i'll see a kid.. throwing rocks or something and it just kinda pops outta my mouth before i can stop it =) i started painting classes again.. i had my first one 2 weeks ago.. its only every other week so i can go to waterloo on the weekends when i don't have class.. but that hasn't been working out so well so far... i like painting class i've missed it... i kinda forget what i need to do and stuff but i'm pretty sure i'll remember soon enough i miss waterloo. yeah i know.. nobody misses waterloo. but i do. its so much more fun than... being at home.. at least i can go out whenever! and i don't hafta deal with crazy parents who get mad all the time. i think crazy runs in the family. and i miss my friends! and skating! and sesame chicken! oh how i crave it!! *drool* i'm thinking.. when i come up next weekend.. i think i shall spend the day at mikeys haha eat sesame chicken.. bug amander and kat while they work.. and just read or something.. OH! i can do my work hahaha.. since i haven't barely touched it this whole summer.. and the term is almost over. crap. i've just been so unmotivated to do my work. i know i need to.. but i just don't care... and it sorta bothers me.. but not enough for me to do anything about it.. hahaha i'm so pathetic. things have just been really up and down for me this summer.. i don't even have a really great reason either.. i think the adjusting to home took a while and then just other stuff... but its been a rollercoaster ride of a summer... not that anything really BAD has happened either... its just like... little things.. and i think me being a little oversensitive.. or a little... crazy. i just miss a lot of little things.. and it makes me sad... little things like popping by someone's house to say hi and then ending up hanging out all nite or something... or just hanging out in general... i miss hanging out with people my age... i mean playing with little kids is awesome.. and getting hugs from them totally makes my day.. but its just not the same as being goofy with friends...meaningful hugs for when i'm feeling sad... or watching a movie thats not barney... i've got a really great job.. i think i actually like it a lot... i haven't really started to dread going to work just yet but i feel like i'm still learning a lot and i've been there a while already... so i kinda feel like i'm not learning fast enough... but its actually making me consider going back to school for my ece.... but i dunno.... we'll see how things go... missing the little things a lot... waiting for my knight in shining armour to come and rescue me... 0_o ( 11:16 PM ) ~ punchyfruit ~ |
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