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Sunday, April 23, 2006 i guess i finally decided. yeah.... i think.. i'm staying at home... i guess i am. a part of me really doesn't want to... a big part... but i know its probably the right thing to do... and i knew that from the beginning. i guess i'm not really happy about it really... but a part of me is sort of? no... not really. i mean i got a job at the daycare for sure... i actually worked on friday instead of going in to just see what things were like. i was kinda nervous about that but it was good... the kids are cute... so cute... i'm just hoping i'll really like it since i've really wanted to work here since last summer. i'm gonna miss waterloo a lot. i guess just the freedom and my friends and everything... i'm gonna try to go up every weekend... i don't care how expensive greyhound tickets will be. i'm going. i guess after a lil while i'll be less upset/sad about staying at home and missing waterloo and i'll have a good time... i guess staying home just means that i can't really have a summer to just goof off anymore. ever. makes me sad. but i guess its about time i started acting my age and growing up. the kids are really cute tho... so adorable. i think i'd like to work with the younger kids for a bit... so i can kinda get used to it. i think the older kids will know i'm nervous and will step all over me haha. its tiring tho. running around after the kids and stuff... i really really hope i'll enjoy working there. who knows... maybe this is what i am meant to do... since i've come home i've been bumming a lot. just talking to my sister when she's not out and to my mom and stuff... watching tv... playing games.. with kitty tubby and boogers... i think its good cuz i'm not on the computer too much... but it also means i'm up just as late as i was during exams... 4 in the morning or later... thats not good. i'm gonna be leaving in about 11 days? wow... still have so many things to buy and pack. it's gonna be a good trip... i hope! i'm sure it'll be lotsa fun! and i'll get to get away from everything and just totally throw myself into this chinese fobbiness that... i'm not sure i'll be able to handle... since i'm so not chinese. i guess i haven't really done any preparing for this trip like metally or anything... i haven't really thought about it all that much... like not nearly as much as i probably should... like i'm excited but at the same time i'm kinda... apprehensive cuz i'm not sure how much i'll like it. if i can't stand chinese malls/people now.. how am i gonna be able to handle it when i'm in china?? i'm sure i'll have lots of fun... and i'm hoping to take a lot of pictures... i hope everything goes well when i go! and that kitty and tubby will be good while we're gone and not drive my mom's friend crazy haha.... and that boogers will also be good and not escape so much because he's a crazy lil hammie. i think i'm gonna miss them a lot while i'm gone... and then as soon as i come back i hope i'm going to waterloo to visit everyone! 0_o ( 3:51 AM ) ~ punchyfruit ~ |
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