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Friday, July 29, 2005 ikea! so last nite i finished reading the da vinci code... i thought it was an interesting book... i guess i can see why people are so upset by it and why its like a controversial book or whatever whatever... but it's just a story... i mean it even says that its a novel on the cover... i guess so people don't take it so seriously? but i mean people still do... anywayz yeah i thought it was interesting.. and i sorta wanna read the other book written by this guy... it's called angels & demons so i think its sorta along the same lines in a way? i dunno i find it interesting! i guess i'm in a reading mood =) i'm sorta thinking about re-reading harry potter from the beginning too hehehe... that would probably take me... a lil more than a week? i read the da vinci code in like 2 days... i tried to make it last longer but i had a really hard time =) i'm thinking about doing some cooking this weekend... not dinner but fun stuff =) i saw someone on this cooking show making rice pudding... and now i want some =) i've wanted to try making it for a while now =) oh! i made bubble tea at the beginning of the week... the bubbles take along time to make! and i didn't put any sugar in the water or anything when i was cooking them.... it never said! so they didn't have much flavour... and the tea was a lil weak but it wasn't bad for the first time making it =) oooohhh and we have wild blueberries! i totally forgot! blueberry pancakes! yummers..... *drool!* i'm making myself hungee! we got the new ikea catalogue a few days ago and today i spent a while just pouring over the whole thing =) i love ikea.... and since i've gotta get some stuff for my new place in september i figured i might as well look for stuff! =) now i have a reason to buy some new things! =) i love ikea... it makes me so happy.... i talked to manny on msn the other day! i haven't talked to him in foreeeeever.... but it was fun =) i miss my screener friends... i haven't really kept in touch with them.... lately i've just sorta been feeling that i've been drifting away from people... or pushing away... same thing i guess. like i know there are some people i haven't talked to in ages... and some people i try to avoid but i'm not really sure why... and even with people i do talk to... i don't feel like i'm really TALKING to them... its more like small talk... or just things to say to fill the silence... i dunno... i guess a part of me doesn't really feel like talking to people... and a part of me misses hanging out and everything... but even when i am... i feel so... out of it. or i just shut up and don't say anything.... and i know that sometimes i have a look on my face... kinda blank-stare-but-angry sorta look... but i dunno why. a part of me feels like... just angry at the world i guess... i get upset when people say stoobud things that wouldn't normally upset me much... i secretly (maybe not so secretly) get upset with people when they say they'll do something and they don't... and i get angry at the smallest things. and i know that i'm being sorta antisocial and that i'm pushing people away... but a part of me doesn't really care. a part of me wants to just cut all ties with people... even if i've known them forever or i'm good friends with them and care about them. i know that its this phase i go thru.. but i hate it. i don't understand why i can't just be normal and have a good time with my friends or whatever whatever and not hafta feel like this. 0_o ( 2:43 AM ) ~ punchyfruit ~ |
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