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Wednesday, May 18, 2005 i kinda forgot today was wednesday... my mom was home yesterday and today so that kinda screwed me up.. i thought it was only tuesday! but yeah i haven't done much this week.. like usual! i went out yesterday with pat... nowhere really special... just some grocery shopping and stuff like that... i've been making milkshakes.. sorta fun.. and yummy! i was supposed to go to ikea today but my mom left without me booo.. so i think we're gonna go on friday.. i love ikea! i'm thinking of getting a picture frame... like i don't have enough... but this one is different! its like a filmstrip... and it can fit a whole bunch of pictures! i'll find a picture of it and post it so you understand =) it looks like this  it holds a lot of pictures.. i think it'll take me a while to fill up! if i decide to get it! i think this friday i might be going to my church fellowship.. i haven't gone since first year.. but apparently its changed a lot since then.. so i think i might give it a try... plus i think i'll get to see esta and stella again! haven't seen them in a while... well since we went out for sushi =) mmmm sushi.. i think i'm getting a craving again! anyone wanna go? =) i was just thinking... i've changed a lot since highschool.. not that its a bad thing... like uncle wally said.. i've come out of my shell but i dunno.. i've found that i've become so much more pessimistic than i used to be. i THINK i used to be optimistic about a lot of stuff.. i think. i don't remmeber anymore. i don't really LIKE being pessimistic... but i think its sorta a way to cope with disappointments... expect the worst that way if it happens you already knew it was gonna happen.. doesn't hurt as much. my mom said something the other day i thought was kinda funny but i thought it was sorta true for me: people treat me like a mushroom.. alwayz kept in the dark and fed a lot of shit. i dunno but i find it to be true for me sometimes... i'm alwayz last to know about like EVERYTHING.. i dunno if its cuz i'm just oblivious and naive or what... and definitely DEFINITELY fed shit. sometimes its really hard to get the truth outta people. maybe i don't mind so much.. i mean what i don't know can't hurt me... but when i find out about things i alwayz think why didn't anyone tell me? my goal for the summer: not to let disappointments get to me so much. people alwayz disappoint. even if they don't mean to... nothing you can do about that. but i think i'm really gonna try not to let it get to me.. not to care so much if things don't go my way or the way i was planning... not to care if i'm left outta the loop or anything. i'm gonna try not to let these things affect me anymore. so thats my goal for the summer! and to hopefully get my room cleaned up! its a good idea since we've lived in this house for over a year and practically all my stuff is still in boxes! oh i made a necklace... it looks okie i think.. i think my mom likes it more than i do... but i like it.. i made some of the beads in it... it looks pretty nice... i don't have a picture of it but maybe i'll take one later and post it... csi season finale tomorrow i am sooooo watching that... 2 hours of scary csi goodness *eeee!* nobody talk to me from 8-10 cuz i will be glued to the tv! not like i don't watch a lot of tv now anywayz.. but this is CSI! oooo i'm excited! okie gonna go.. boogers is going crazy in his cage again... 0_o ( 11:04 PM ) ~ punchyfruit ~ |
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