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Saturday, January 08, 2005 i have no life. my life is work and school. i went to ccf last nite and it was like intros and talking about the new cell groups and stuff... and everytime i found one that i thought i might wanna join.. i can't. because i work. it kinda felt pointless being there... not like i could go to any of the cell groups... why even be there to hear about them? i already have so much work to do and the first week of school just ended. i am so screwed this term. my courses are so much harder... i have so much stuff i need to review from last year... i am so screwed. i think i'm really gonna need to quit one of my jobs this term... but i really can't decide which one to quit... *sigh* i feel so stressed out already... and school has barely started. and people... don't get me started on people... i don't understand them. the more people i meet the more i like my cats. take substitute friends. they're your friend when they don't have any other friends.. but once they're closer with someone else they kinda forget about you. or the people who think they're so much better than you... what makes them think they're so great? because they SEEM more confident? because they SOUND smart? just because someone seems smart doesn't mean they are... everyone knows that people talk loud when they wanna seem smart. and people who don't bother to remember names... why don't you take the time to get to know me before you label me? i'm more than just a label... i'm sure you wouldn't like it if i labelled you something and called you that all the time... i mean if you were my friend and you were just teasing.. fine. but you're not my friend. and i really don't think you're teasing. and then there's people who have double standards. like really. how fair is it that i hafta stop doing something while you turn around and do whatever it is you want me to stop doing? or you tell me what i'm supposed to do and if i tell you what to do you freak out? or like if i'm upset... you shrug it off but if i did the same thing to you... you spaz? but then there are the people who aren't so bad... like the people who are so super nice you never see them mad... or the people who alwayz check to see how you're doing... but the stoobud people alwayz seem to outnumber the nice ones... but at least i know lotsa nice people =) even tho it feels like i know more stoobud people who's necks i wanna wring... but nice people make me happy =) i'm glad that i've gotten closer to some people and i'm even glad that i've kinda drifted from others... all just a part of life... even school and work.. and stoobud people.. no matter how much i hate them i'll never be rid of them... 0_o ( 4:15 PM ) ~ punchyfruit ~ |
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