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Sunday, January 26, 2003 sooo.. tired... totally messed up right now... running on an hour (probably less) of sleep... sooo screwed up... if i sleep now... what if someone calls later on? and i miss it? dah... i don't really WANNA sleep now... but i'm having a really hard time fighting this sleep away... probably woulda been better if i passed out as soon as i got back... but i've been up talking and hanging out... the retreat was good... at some times... at lots of times... i felt kinda weird... like i didn't belong really... there was a point when i just felt like screaming... but it was a really good retreat... i met lotsa new people... even if i won't be talking to most of them like all the time... i still met some people i could hang out with! like sam! he's in first year too... and he just started going to ccf.. he's pretty kool... last nite we stayed up really late talking and stuff... he's pretty kool... he drove me back today and then we kinda chilled here for a bit...so on the last nite of the retreat me and erica stayed up ALL nite... crazy.... i dunno how i did it! sooo tired! well i actually got a nap so technically didn't stay up all nite... but it was really fun! we stayed up playing cards with andy, anna, rob and some other people... forget who =) it was sooo jokes... me and erica went and took a shower at 5:30 in the morning! crazy.... hahaha. then we ran back to the lodge place to hang out some more.. hehehe..we were gonna watch the sunrise... but i never saw it =) we were in one of the rooms looking out the window... but i passed out on the bed so i didn't see anything... i'm glad i went.. it was really fun.. and i got to meet new people and stuff so i'm glad i went... even though sometimes i still felt kinda weird sometimes... but now the problem is that it's gonna be so much harder to go to wcf... i said i'd go the week after the retreat... but how can i? i won't see everyone then! booo.. i feel kinda bad... i hafta go to wcf though! maybe the week after? booo.. i dunno! i cried during sharing... grrrs.. i hate when i cry... i was thinking about stuff and then i started kinda sniffling.. and then it started to pour... so i hid in the washroom for like 10 minutes... arghs.. hate when i do that... i felt so stoobud... cuz like i cry.... but nobody knows why cuz i don't say anything... even when people ask me if i'm okie... i guess eventually i'll tell someone.. but i dunno... i'm scared that some people might get mad at me... so i don't wanna say anything yet... but i know i will eventually... i wanna watch a movie this weekend... i feel like i haven't watched a movie in sooo long... but we'll see! things are starting to get busy so everyone might not have time to watch movies with me... we'll see! arghs... sooo incredibly tired.. can't stay up much longer... will blog more about the retreat tomorrow then! 0_o ( 10:19 PM ) ~ punchyfruit ~ |
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