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Tuesday, October 08, 2002 okie so yesterday was.. amusing to say the least... so tired after the weekend... totally passed out sunday nite... classes seemed to drag on FOREVER yesterday... i went with nadine to yuling and nathan's place to work on his 12 000 piece puzzle... it's crazy! so much done already... well i consider it lots... it was fun.. even though after like an hour i was bored of the puzzle.. i don't have much patience for something that big =) but we were there til almost 12... and then yuling showed us some of the bugs bunny cartoons he had on his computer hehehe.... i luv bugs bunny! he was so kool! hahaha... so we went back to nadine's place cuz i was gonna sleep over... too late to walk back home anywayz... plus i didn't have class the next day! so yeah... i was playing around on the computer... on icq and stuff.. and then chris icqed me... this guy like seriously doesn't leave me alone... he asked me if i wanted to go see rush hour 2 at his place.. he's been bugging forever to go see it with him but i don't wanna! and everytime he asks me if i wanna go do something with him and i say no then he gets all pissed off at me! it's pissing me off.. at first i felt kinda bad for alwayz saying no.. but i don't alwayz say no! i've done stuff with him! i went to dinner with him twice! so you think that he would leave me alone every once in a while!! but he doesn't.. and it's seriously stressing me out.. i do't wanna say yes all the time and give him the wrong idea... but i feel bad for saying no all the time too! until last nite. he seriously pissed me off last nite and i don't think i'm gonna talk to him for a while. he asked me if i wanted to see rush hour 2 with him... and i said i couldn't cuz i have lotsa work to do.. no wait! lemme backtrack a bit.. he called me up sunday nite and asked me if i wanted to go to dinner with him but i told him i couldn't cuz i would be going to dinner with some other friends and he was like oh.. you never wanna do anything with me... but i told him i did stuff with him before and he knows it. then he asked if i wanted to go watch him play basketball and i was like dunno we'll see probably not cuz i'll be having dinner and whatever... but i ended up watching toy story 2 with leanne.. one of my roommates... she's a big disney fan too =) so anywayz yeah he was trying to make me feel all guilty for not going but i was like whatever... then later on icq he was like why didn't you come and i was like my friend came up to visit me this weekend so i gotta spend some time with them and stuff and he was like oh so if i visit you will you spend more time with me? and this is when i started rolling my eyes... then go back to when he asked me to watch rush hour 2 with him.. i said i couldn't... he was like goddamn it you never do anything with me and some other stuff but i forgot... but yeah this is when i started getting pissed off... so i was like i said i was sorry but i can't help it if i've got work to do or other friends to hang around with and i said i was sorry! and then he's like you have time for your other friends but not me and how i never wanna do anything with him and then he swore at me! not exactly at me but he pretty much said f*** but in chinese... that SERIOUSLY pissed me off... so i stopped talking to him.. but i was so mad... stop trying to make me feel guilty for not hanging with you all the time! i said i was sorry but i have a life too! i can't spend every single minute with you just cuz you want me to! i have other friends and other stuff to do.. i'm not gonna waste anytime feeling guilty if you keep this up!!!! i didn't actually say this to him.. but i was really close to saying something along the lines of that.. but nadine said not to.. so i didn't... but i was talking to nathan at the time and since he's my cell group leader and chris is in my cell group she made me call him.. but i made her call him and talk to him first... he was really good about it... he said he'd talk to chris about it kinda... and yeah... i dunno.. don't really wanna blow it all outta proportion or anything but it just got me really mad... and afterwards when i hung up after talking to nathan i felt kinda retarded i guess about telling him.. but nadin'e gonna clear it up for me... she's worried about me not learning anything in cell group anymore cuz i'll be worrying about what chris will say and how it'll be really weird and uncomfortable being in the same group as him.. i don't wanna join another cell group because i like my cell group... but being in the same cell group as chris is gona be a little weird for me.. but i'm just gonna act as if nothing happened... i guess.. well i dunno... nathan said to just try to keep things neutral whenever i hafta talk to him and don't be too blunt or too caring i guess... but just like small talk kinda stuff i guess... but i don't wanna hafta see him at all.. i dunno. i was really mad yesterday.. and now it's just like... gonna be weird. i wanna see if nadine will go with me to cell group this week.. or i might be brave and go by myself =) well i'm gonna hafta deal with it on my own.. can't expect everyone to take care of my problems for me... but i hope that i talk to nathan more cuz of this... nadine said when i was on the phone with him i talked in this way that she said was like tiny, quiet everythings-gonna-be-okie-cuz-the-guy-i-like-is-gonna-protect-me kinda voice hehehe.. she said i can't like him more because of this... i said i'd try not to =) but i guess i'm glad that i told nathan so he could kinda just check up on me and like get me outta sticky situations =) but yeah... that icq conversation just really pissed me off.. and it kinda creeped me out and stressed me out a little more... i really don't need this right now... he emailed me this morning... he apologized for what he said but it was cuz he was tired and his exam didn't go well so he took it out on me even though he shouldn't have.. but he's alwayz making excuses for getting pissed with me.. it's cuz he was in a weird mood... or he's tired and his exams didn't go well.. or he was having a bad day... but i'm tired of hearing all that cuz seriously it's just a load of crap. then he tried making me feel guilty for not doing anything with him cuz he said he doesn't have very many friends and since we live in the same building he thought we could hang out lots but then i'm a busy person and have so many other friends so i don't have much time to spend with him and he was like yeah it was fun while it lasted... blah blah... i'm still mad. 0_o ( 1:13 PM ) ~ punchyfruit ~ |
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